Not much has been goin on lately. after muay thai on Saturday night I went to Ajax & visited Ric. Coincidentally he was having a house jam. I go there expecting to do some recording in his studio and i drive up to an entire street full of cars. talk about people everywhere. we didnt get any real recording done but i met a few interesting people. I found a small group of friends that ric went to high school with & chilled with them for most of the night. stayed till the beer wore off then drove home.

Sunday shane and i went to the gym & hit the weights. haha. OUR GOAL IS TO GET HUGE by the time summer comes around. haha soo big that we can do that thing with our man boobs. hmm you can judge for yourselves. haha. we went back to my house & just relaxed after a hard work out.

hmm today was pretty funny.. went to class early 830 and watched the newest frankenstein movie.. its pretty cool. hmm met up with ricardo, mike james & ken afterward and chillied for a bit. steph came and we hung out till she had class. i then snuck off to write my essay on how LL COOL J is the greatest rapper ofall time. lol met up with steph again and she helped me print my paper which took forever.. richie steph and myself walked to ACE. richie and i tried to convice steph to sit in.. but she didnt.. and then i went home haha.. tahts it.

really looking forward to reading week.

yep & thats about it. like i said.. not too much goin on. nothing at all actually. haha. looks like its back to the norm.

laterrrr

-soto

Yea, it's bad ass...

hmmm... I just wanna say...sometimes i'm an idiot.

you know what's crazy? MUAY THAI!!!! i started taking muay thai.. i've left the dojo for a little bit. It's been a good 14 years at that dojo. I've accomplished alot there, got my black belt, competed in provincial tournaments, national tournaments, and the world tournament in Japan. yep, I hope to go back to it in a year or two. but its time for me to take on new endeavours. and i've always wanted to learn muay thai. KICKBOXING WORKS YOU OUT!.. i've been grumpy and out of it lately partly because my body is aching.. my shins hurt, my muscles are sore.. & i thought i was somewhat in shape.. wrong as hell.. lol

I'm gunna be like.. like.. tony jaa by the time summer comes.. lol hopefully.

well later. i'll leave you with some classic LL. HEY LOVER, it's MORE than a crush... haha

later

- Ladies Love Cool Mark... haha

I WRITE SINS, NOT TRAGEDIES.

I have alot of trouble trusting these days. It's taken me a very long time to write this. to put into words what i want to say. there used to be a time when i had a huge heart and I would help any friend I could, if i could. I gave trust away. There was a time when i didnt know the meaning of the word Betray. And my life revoled around best friends and good times. but notice this is all in passed tense. we all know the situation, they all laugh, and everyone talks behind closed doors. except for me, I dont talk at all. It's not worth it, even when times are good... its still not worth it. Right now I'm on a road that just circles around, & i'm struggling to make my way to the off ramp. I dont want to make this long. I just want to get some points out.  1.Things happened that were so BAD, its still puts doubt into my mind even now. and i can say i dont care all i want, & I can mean it as much as i do, because i really do, but its still a bother. it's something in the back of my head. And it keeps me thinking about it, even when i want to move on... and it also stops me, from possibly furthering this endeavour. There are times when I'm faced with two options : A. I can turn around and leave.. B. I can stay, and be angry. 2. It's impossible for me to trust anyone. I really hate myself for thinking that people are working against me. and this is the fault of everyone who was in on it. I HATE ALL OF YOU. It's you're fault I can't trust my best friends. AND I'VE BECOME SELF CENTERED. So blame yourselves when things are awkward. everyone of you. I never asked any questions, and I know I should have. sooo... why? and was it worth it.

***this is an angry blog*** & its becuase i had a bad dream.. haha. something i thought was over.. may not be. I'm not going to do anything, and let people run around me. It's seems like the best thing to do right now. maybe trust is something i cant afford to give away. maybe things dont work out for a reason. bye.

-soto

& I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know. .... I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know...

TRUST - THRICE.

alot has been stirred and has yet to settle... & I dont want waste the littel brain power points I have on this stupid glass of whatever it is... :S so this weekend i dedicate to myself.

I'll see you all when i get back. you just gotta trust that everything will work out fine =D

-mark

Seriously this time... Right out.

2006 will be a cool year.